UnFoRgIvEnUnDeAd

Just when I think I have a chance at bettering myself, everything goes belly up. My health is getting worse and at this point I can't really do anything about it (going for more tests in the next week or so) My family and all but a small handful of friends have turned their backs on me There is a constant battle going on in my mind (dark side versus regular self) I'm having to deal with consequences of past mistakes I always feel inferior My anxieties and anger problems always make things worse than they really are Anyone who doesn't know me would think everything's fine and dandy when really, I'm falling apart Even the ones who do,

I haven't been on here in a long time so I figured I'd just make a sort of brief update. This is my third (soon to be fourth) year away from the place I once called home and what have I done with my life? nothing. Why?, because by the legal system's point of view I don't exist. I have no form of identification what so ever (not my fault!) my so called 'mother' will not hand over the paperwork necessary to obtain everything I need. My main concern is not whether I do or don't get a job or even that I can't really do anything. All that matters right now is getting myself sorted health wise. I'm tired of being weak and at times not being able

It's been  a rather rough time for me at the moment. I've been experiencing more and more problems physically due to it being Winter right now so that really sucks. Also, in the past couple of days, whenever I try to open up and talk to my uncle, he tries to listen and be there for me but at the same time I feel like it's a waste time because it's like he really doesn't have time for me and is usually doing other stuff anyway. I don't even try talking to my nan anymore because even though I know she means well, it seems like all she does is cut me off, talks louder than I do and kinda fights me on some things. I barely even speak to my fri